Will they be alright?

Juggling raising a 9 year old boy and a 3 year old girl is a constant exercise in deliberate awareness. It is a team effort with my wonderful  Rawan. Introspection on the process happens either in conversation - often as pillow talk - or on our own.

Often do I realize that we've skipped, missed, overlooked or underestimated a key topic or teaching point. If we're truly frank with ourselves though, we realize that skipping, missing or any other omission is oftentimes intentional, and intentional on a subconscious level. It is often our own fears, our own pain, our own gremlins dragons or demons that we bring to be and seek to protect our children from by shielding them from being exposed to those precious dark parts of our Self.

The reality is that our children too will have fears, they will have demons and they will have dragons and they will have gremlins. What has been a key learning for me is that my children's dragons must be their own, their demons must be their own and their gremlins must be of their own making, for if they were not, their Selves would not become who they were truly meant to be once they conquer the dark side of who they are. Their victories will only be complete if they fight their own darknesses, win their own battles against their own selves, not ours.

I am yet to learn how I can allow my children to grow their own light and grow their own darkness. I am yet to learn how my children will hurt to give birth to their own dark sides. I have a strong feeling that they will do that themselves though, achieving their own yin and yang despite anything and everything we their parents do.

Their Selves are much greater than our naive conscious selves, and I have peace in that despite and after all we've done, they will be alright...

Leaving, left, gone

Two and half years. It's amazing when I think of it.
Time flew by.
I write this with a pinch of saddness, I made good friends here in Kuwait.
Kuwait is a place that's misjudged. Many people claim "there's nothing to do in Kuwait" but that's so wrong. Many people claim that Kuwaitis don't mingle with expats, that's wrong too. Kuwait is only different in that you are the one who should make the effort to make things happen.
I've led an interesting life here in Kuwait. My wife and I never sat bored at home (ok, except the liberation and national days where it's hell to go out, give you that) we always had something to do.
You can choose your friends in Kuwait and we made some very good ones.
I like Kuwait and will be sad to go, I won't miss Marina Mall or the 60 Starbucks shops or Sultan Center, but will miss the people, the expats and Kuwaitis.

Whoever reads this will know I say goodbye with a sad heart, no mushy mushy but trully, I will miss you guys.

I'll keep my blog in Dubai, I'll be in touch and will see you again.

Big bear hugs to you all, you know who you are.

Love.

world?countries?borders? think again

He is Palestinian American, she in Indian, we are Lebanese. In Dubai, eating a salad where the pesto was from italy, the tomatoes from Saudi, the serving set from Lebanon -Phoenicians rule(d)- . Then we had steak from the US, wine from France with glasses made in the UK.
And you say borders?
Forget it, i can already see the day where people will eat the same food, dress the same way, speak the same language and reminisce about who they were. Only a big part of the world will not follow suite, and then the little wars we see now will be dwardfed by clashes among more different peoples, in larger groups, with more reasons to eliminate each other. I hope we'll have colonized Mars by then.

lady luck

There is a whole swirl of ideas going in my head as to whether we can affect our luck or not. By luck I mean the occurrence of events, not the current belief about luck, roulette-style…
I just lost a game of Risk (The Lord of the Rings version, real cool, my preciousss) at one point I had an ant-farm of soldiers on one country and I lost!!! My loosing odds were 9:1!!! And it didn’t stop there, I went on loosing and loosing at odds that were worse than you standing on a highway abandoned for sixty years and then a car passing and crushing you…I hated it
I know that thoughts go out as energy…if you think about something you can make it happen (hence the ubiquitous sayings in all languages going around: if you’re scared of the monkey you WILL get it)
Can we affect our luck/the happenings of events? Is it true that if you look at life positively it DOES become positive – drop the argument that says “you can look at things in either a positive or negative way – I’m talking about the things that are inarguably negative, LIKE LOOSING A FREAKIN’ RISK GAME…
I wonder...
Conclusion – if I meet Lady Luck -it should be lady luck, no capitals, she don’t deserve that- in any parallel of universe, I’m slitting her throat.
Goodnight.

P. J. O'Rourke said it right:
“A little government and a little luck are necessary in life, but only a fool trusts either of them.”

A few more days and I might start the bad habbit of biting my nails, why? Becuase after ten years of wanting one, I finally bought me a Harley!
The only thing getting on my nerves is the fact that just now, when I got all the paperwork done I have to travel for five days...to rub it in, I got four gifts of HD merchandise for my b-day...URGGGGHHH
Weather is awesome tho, right time to ride n tumble, I hope I'll b doing more of the former :-]

the big three O

30! Feels good!
It's funny how every decade's birthday marks you, my 20th was very cool, I had always wanted to start my twenties, now am 30, I feel real good about that, the time is right to be 30.

Intro

Created my blog today.

There is a luring temptation to it, intimidating yet daring...like standing in front of a crowd just to say what's on your mind...I am interested in seeing what comes out of this...we'll see...

Your words make you exist.